too late

I’ve wanted to write this for a very long time. This stuff has basically been eating me up inside.

I don’t know where to start. I don’t know what to say. I just wanted to say something.

Lately I’ve felt like I’ve been losing friends. I feel like I’m gaining some too. And who knows, maybe they’ll be better friends. But I’m still bummed for losing some of the greatest ones I ever had.

I feel like it’s my fault. I was too reluctant to open up to people. I was always afraid that I couldn’t trust anybody. If I had told any one person everything about me then they would tell another person and so on. I was scared that my business would be all over the place.

My bad.

No one was so interested in my life that they would want to spread rumors about me. I shouldn’t have been so cautious about my business, it would have still been my business only shared with my best friends.

Ex-best friends?

We never talk anymore. Ever.

Sure, I’ve made new friends that I can and do tell everything to. But it’s just not the same.

I wish we still talked. We used to be so close, and now we don’t even say hello when we pass in the hall.

I miss you guys.

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