Day 5 Let Go

What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?

I’ve let go of a lot of things this past year.  So much, in fact, that I feel like a different person than this time last year.

  • I’ve let go of many of my friends.  I realized that not all friends are trustworthy, and that it’s not about the quantity but the quality.  During 2010 I’ve made a lot of friends and I’ve lost a lot of friends, but I know that the few I’ve kept will be there for me no matter what.
  • I’ve let go of petty high school drama.  I’ve never been a fan of drama; I try to avoid it at all costs.  Yet there are times when there is absolutely no way around that one fight that can ruin a friendship.  This goes back to my last point: some people I know are still stuck in high school, meaning they pick a fight whenever possible with whoever possible no matter what the cost.  These are people that I’ve let go of, because I don’t need any of that bullshit in my life.
  • I’ve let go of a job that I truly enjoyed.  It wasn’t a choice I wanted to make, but unfortunately I was unable to find a Starbucks in the Monterey Bay area that was willing to take me on as a transfer.  So I lost my job in August.  Since then I spent a lot of time searching for a new job that would take it’s place.  I’ve landed a seasonal job at Forever 21, a popular clothing store, and I will work as a sales associate until January 8.  However, I know that retail is just not for me.  I don’t enjoy myself there as much as I did behind the counter as a barista.  I’m hoping that with my persistence I will be able to work at Starbucks or any other coffee shop again soon.
  • I’ve let go of my comfortable home to live with two other complete strangers.  This is enjoyable though.  Sure, I don’t have the best roommates (one is an obnoxious, attention-seeking alcoholic and the other doesn’t talk much) but living on my own is somewhat fantastic.  Don’t get me wrong, I miss my family a lot, but it’s nice to get out of that crowded house!
  • I’ve let go of the safety and security that my parents have provided for me for the past eighteen years to move 138 miles away for school.

I’ve let go of some many things, many more than I’ve listed here, but those sacrifices made me exactly who I am today sitting here in front of this computer screen. And I wouldn’t have done anything differently if I could have.

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1 Comment

Filed under change, friendsies, getting older, Reverb 10

One response to “Day 5 Let Go

  1. Laura

    sigh!
    I hate that you are growing up but I do love the person you are growing up to become.
    the house isn’t crowded at all anymore, in fact I now, for the first time ever have a guest bathroom.
    Love you!

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